Friday, September 30, 2011

What a week~

It has been a week~  so thankful that it is behind me.  I have been spending much of this week with my grandma's sister...my great aunt; who has been going a very difficult time.  She is such a sweet and strong woman of God; just like grandma.  I am very thankful that I was able to help her....she helped me as a teenager a great deal.  She was always there to listen to me and I have never forgotten.  Today after a week of taking her to places that we both wish we did not have to go...my dear cousin took the two us out to a wonderful lunch with her~  I haven't been out in so long like this...it was an absolute treat.  I am back to work at church; just a couple of hours a week.  I am beginning to apply for jobs again.  I am hoping to find something that will allow me to work with the kids schedules.  I have to believe that God will continue to take care of our family.  I have been sending Tom's resume out almost on a daily basis...praying that someone will give him a chance.  He is such a hard worker and has so much experience in business~  I pray each day that God will bless him and our family.  We both very much would like a brand new start~ and I know that it would be great for our family....so I continue to pray and wait on the Lord.  He had a call from Tampa this week from a recruiter and they said they would be moving on to the interview process....so we will see what happens.  I am more than a little apprehensive about getting our hopes up~  I know we are in Gods hands.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

God is bigger~

Tom got home this afternoon exhausted from the day yesterday~ it was long...he left Fort Lauderdale at seven and than got in late last night.  Tomorrow he is off bright and early to work.  Well~ things went in manner that he has never experienced before....so now he doesn't know where he stands and is confused.  The gentleman he would be working for directly was very nice and professional...but the regional~ that was a different story altogether.  He said some very negative things in regards to Tom's appearance...he went in a suit...and implied that perhaps he would have a hard time fitting in because of his looks...now Tom's father is Dutch his mother Spanish and Tom looks Spanish...so he was left wondering what was this person's implication but!  no matter~ because Tom said he did not blink...did not let this person see that he was upset and proceeded to conduct himself in the manner he always does~ professionally.  I think that for whatever reason he has a a sense of being superior and that my husband said is fine...he just would like a job.  So it is in God's hands because whether this man realizes it or not...it is not about what he wants~ he is not in control of our lives...GOD IS!  So take that~ because I know my God is bigger and continues to provide.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Some days are just difficult~

Today has been a difficult day~ the steroids are making feel as if I am climbing the walls.  Not a good feeling~ than I get a call from my boss who would like to know if I can be reliable...because if I can't perhaps I should be taken off the schedule.  Well~ I am hurt because this is a Christian and angry because there is the ADA act.  I think because of the meds it has made me feel more agitated than I normally would~ but I need that little bit of money each week to get the girls to and from church...so tomorrow I meet with my pastors wife to discuss how this needs to be handled.  Please pray the Lord gives me the words...I am not a vengeful person and I just want to be treated in a manner that is thoughtful and respectful.  I have never missed work but I am just having a difficult time rebounding from this flare.  Tom leaves tomorrow morning for Roanoke.  Praying all goes well and they are able to hammer out a good contract.  I know that God has a plan.  So I am going to try and settle down with a cup of tea and let the day go~

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Home Again~

So I have been spending the last several days recuperating at home after several days in the hospital~ there are times when I forget that I have Lupus...I love those days but every once in a while it rears its ugly head to remind me.  This happened last week after a very long day and not feeling so good...I was having a hard time breathing so Tom took me to the hospital.  I am very happy to say that all the tests they ran had great results...no heart issues...no problem whatsoever but just an incredibly big flare.  So here I am at home resting~ God is good the hospital visit is covered and now I just need to regroup.  Tom leaves this Thursday for Roanoke, Virginia.  So excited!  He is meeting with his bosses to look at and sign the contract.  We are hoping that he can start by October.  We are trusting the Lord for the money for him to go up and get settled.  The kids and I have been invited to stay come December with a cousin who lives four hours away.  He and her husband have opened their house to us so that Tom would not have to be without us and us without him for too long.  God is good.  So we will see ...the kids would like to stay through December but Tom very much would like us to stay with them.  So much to be done~ packing!  Please dear sisters; pray for that the Lord gives me the strength I need to do all that must be done.  Pray that we are able to save the monies needed for this move.  I know that God will make a way...where it seems hard.  He has not failed us and I do not believe that he will stop now.  He is faithful even when I struggle in my faith and walk....He is good.