Time to regroup~

Life has been a little hectic as of late~still getting used to being away from home on a daily basis..it is hard and difficult.  I miss my kids~I miss my routine...I miss my old life.  I am thankful for all the many years I was able to stay home with the kids and really be a homemaker.  I am thankful now for a job that helps our family.  It is just different and something that I am sure will take time a lot of time to become my new norm.  Tom was away for a week for training and it went very well.  He is slowly finding his footing and it will take time in this economy here in Florida to get to where he would like to be but all good things take time.  Amanda is starting her apprenticeship at church this summer and looking to start college in August.  Gabby continues daily with her studies and I am trying to be patient as she has been through so much.  Austin is on a break for now as he continues to struggle with his health and we cannot take him to the doctor until we get health insurance.  By allowing him to take this time and just concentrate on his writing and just taking care of himself he is less stressed and not feeling as sick...so this is what needs to be done.  I know that God is going to put our lives back together~he has already shown himself faithful to our family; so I am just going to continue to trust and hold on tight.  I found myself last week running and although I thought I was praying and in the word~it just wasn't registering....so I just found myself today asking the Lord to really let me hear him and really let me get what he is teaching me during this season.  I just want the be the wife/mother he wants me to be; because the biggest ministry I will ever have is to my family.