Sunday, October 16, 2011
My oh my~
My oh my~ what a busy week it was and it will not be letting up! So I have spent the weekend lounging...being a couch potato~ saving my strength for what lies ahead. Tomorrow begins bright an early with my great aunt~ to the surgeon we go...she has been quite sick and has to have surgery....and than back to her home to drop her off....back home to catch my breath~ and than off again to radiation with my aunt for her fitting for the treatments. Lord willing they will begin her treatments this week. The interviews for Tom and I went well last week...but we will just wait and see. My boss at my part-time job has given me quite the work-out with her attitude towards me....praying that she will let up as this is not what I expected from a fellow sister in Christ~ and frankly I am very hurt. Gabby is quite excited and nervous for her praise team auditions on Thursday night. I hope and pray it goes well for her~ she has so few things that she really enjoys and singing is at the top of her list. Amanda has started to study again; hoping that she can get some of her focus back. My Austin is still quite sick~ and we wait to see if we can get him to a doctor. It has been frustrating as of late because although I am leaning on the Lord....I often wonder ~ When?! and of course Why?! I just want my son to be healthy and taken care of and for us to not be able to do take care of him makes us feel horrible. So waiting....is a really struggle for me. I am just trying to remain positive and pray and trust some more~ Trust is such a hard thing and I don't know that it gets any easier. One would think that it would...at least I feel as if it should get easier for me....but it hasn't and I remind myself daily to trust....to remember that I have no control and that God does see what we are going through~ He hasn't dropped us....He doesn't forget our needs...do I understand His timing vs. what seems right to me....absolutely not! but I wait and trust and pray and continue on...because I am called to this life of faith.... and just because I don't get it doesn't mean that He has forgotten me or our families needs, wants, hopes, dreams~ I am reminded that scripture tells us that His timing is perfect and to everything there is a season....that He will never leave us nor forsake....these are God's promises to each and every one of us....this is what keeps me hopeful.