Thursday~

This is the day that the Lord has made..We will rejoice and be glad in it~

What an unbelievably busy day...but~ We got it all done....I went downtown and was able to get some assistance in order to get my meds..Yea! Because I have been without them for almost a month and it is starting to take a toll on my health..I am really feeling for lack of a better word..Yucky~ yep, that's right...So we have to go back tomorrow bright and early and I will get to see a doctor and someone who will help us get insurance...Praise God! Tom and I were able to have lunch together..we had never been..Cici's had a 3.99 special..You know it was actually good..and it was nice to have lunch together. We than went food shopping..Joy~ Actually, I don't mind food shopping...since I love cooking I am always trying something different~ So now a little bit of a rest...so that tonight we can take the kids over to see dad..he is not mobile and must stay home except for doctor's appointments~ we are trying to spend time with him and mom and get back into the groove of being a family. God is good~ He knows what we need and will give us the grace to get thru~ Tom and I were talking about it today...we don't know where we are going to land..but God knows and because of this...it is going to be ok~

What a Friend~

What a Friend we have in Jesus
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit.
O what a needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer!

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged,
Take it to the Lord in Prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in Prayer.

Are we weak and heavy-laden,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Saviour, still our refuge~
Take it to the Lord in Prayer.
Do thy friends despise,
Forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in Prayer,
In His arms He'll take and shield thee,
Thou wilt find solace there~

Philippians 4:6-7
DON'T WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING; INSTEAD PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING. TELL GOD WHAT YOU NEED, AND THANK HIM FOR ALL HE HAS DONE. THEN YOU WILL EXPERIENCE GOD'S PEACE, WHICH EXCEEDS ANYTHING WE CAN UNDERSTAND. HIS PEACE WILL GUARD YOUR HEARTS AND MINDS AS YOU LIVE IN CHRIST JESUS.

Walking on~

This is the day that the Lord has made ~ I will rejoice and be glad in it!

I need to remember this every step of the way...that God sees all...He knows all...and nothing surprises Him. Not the fact that Tom has no job...not my illness...not our housing situation...Nothing~ He is going to get us through..if only one little step at a time. I used to sing a song to the kids as they started walking..it was from an old Christmas special~ It went: Just put one foot in front of the other..and soon you'll be walking out the door...That is what I intend to do..simply keep walking because it is simply said...our walk of faith...my walk of faith..that I am getting to experience first-hand. It is never easy and it is very frustrating at times but I know God in all His wisdom and mercy will allow our family to use this experience for His glory , honor and praise. We as a family will be I believe more loving and kind and compassionate to those around us and this is a good thing. Something that the Lord will can use and will use~ So I pick myself up today and dust myself to a renewed sense of hope knowing that with Gods' help all things are possible.

Busy Bees~

Busy...busy....busy~ These past several days have left me completely exhausted! The kids and I had a lovely day with some friends that have recently moved back home...went for lunch and ended up spending the whole day~ It was so good to fellowship with like-minded people..the kids have a wonderful time and we were made to feel so very welcome in their home. Tom and I helped chaperon a block party at church...where there were over a thousand kids! Then Saturday up early to go to the special needs center and then off to church Saturday night...so today is our day of rest~ We had a uneventful and lazy day for the most part ..just what was needed as tomorrow it is back to the weekly routine. Tom has left Blockbuster...they refused to give him his money back from taking out incorrect taxes after they said they would...and cut his hours ...so he is making more money from unemployment~ He has just two weeks left until he leaves for driving school..so this will give us time to get our house in order for when he is gone. It will so strange not having him here...in all our years being married we have never been apart for more than five days~ We are hoping and praying that he will be offered a job right away and can start work...My prayer is that he will be offered a position that will allow him to come home at least on the weekends...but we will see~ As it stands now it looks as if he will be driving across the country..this will allow him to make the most money. We are very uncertain right now where we will land but I know that God knows~ So we are waiting to see..We will have an idea in the next month or so and we have waited this long..so what is another several weeks~

Faithful~

God is faithful and ever-present in our time of need~

I have seen His faithfulness and continue to do so on so many levels of our lives. We have food a plenty ....which is a major thing with a teenage boy in the house~haha...That child has grown by leaps and bounds these last several months! Tom has favor with his job..and although it is part-time~ his hours continue to increase. The girls and Austin continue to grow in their walk with the Lord...and really that is something for me as a mom that I can count myself truly blessed. My parents have begun to talk with me and this seems to have really eased the kids stress-level...and for that I cannot begin to say how grateful I am to the Lord. He is ever-present in our times of trouble...and this last year has been so hard on so many different fronts...I count myself blessed that although this growing and stretching process has been uncomfortable and at times overwhelming~ He is there in the middle of it all!

PSALM 127

Unless the Lord builds the house,
the work of the builders is wasted.
Unless the Lord protects the city,
guarding it with sentries will do no good.
It is useless for you to work so hard
from early morning until late at night
anxiously working for food to eat;
for God gives rest to His loved ones~

God is so good~

God is always so good~ No matter what is around the corner We need to know that He knows what is lurking and He will take us through! I am seeking to remember this as we go through trials and uncertainties here at home...Where will the Lord plant our family? I don't know but I know that God knows the beginning , middle and ending to our families story and we only need to seek Him first~ And just as He promises ...."everything will be added unto you"~ It may not look like what we want it too~ But just like any parent ...He knows best. We had a major breakthrough last Wednesday on the extended family home front...My parents asked to see the children...My father was placed in the hospital after he turned blue~ He had to have a blood transfusion...His kidney is no longer working and he is very much living on borrowed time. It was uncomfortable at first because we did not know what to expect but after a while it went was just fine~ Tom came in and gave dad a hug and apologized for losing his temper and dad too asked his forgiveness....ran into Ed and he asked my forgiveness......We I believe are called to forgive and know I believe we proceed with caution for our hearts~ But we must first and foremost are called to show the love of Christ. I feel that God would have us to spend this time with him especially not knowing what tomorrow holds~ So off we go...to seek Gods will during all of this~ So I pray for for guidance and wisdom.

Tea Party Anyone?!

All around this great nation of our's people have risen to the occasion and said enough is enough! We need to just say no to our governments overspending over intrusion in our lives~ The American people are waking up to realize that the change we need is not the change we have...But the great thing about our nation and our people is they will not be silenced...We will not give up or give in~ These tea parties are only the beginning of the people letting our government know that we not only disapprove of their decisions but they will be taken to task and will have to answer to "we the people"...ONE NATION FOUNDED UNDER GOD....no matter what obama says or thinks our country was founded on CHRISTIAN PRINCIPLES~ My son said ...mom didn't he ever read the Constitution?~ We must pray and pray hard for our country and we must take back our government so that it represents the values and principles we were founded on~ No more sending our money overseas for abortion...no more extreme , elitist, socialist policies, agendas or government!

IN GOD WE TRUST~

Tuesday~

It's only Tuesday~ And yet I am longing for Sunday....Yes...Sunday. Sunday's are our down time when I don't worry about any sort of schedule..it is my day to do absolutely nothing~ I need to do nothing right now...it has been a hard day. I have a splitting migraine after a visit from my brother...he always means well and yet whenever he visits I am left feeling saddened, defeated and generally out of sorts. He doesn't seem to bring joyful news because he has taken on the chore of bringing me back into the family fold. I am honestly not sure as much as I love and miss them that I want to be a part of this craziness and dysfunction anymore. My father is back in the hospital again and is very ill~ And yet he didn't want me to know and he hasn't asked to see me...So really I am at a loss...what do you do when you find yourself in such a situation?! And to boot the whole extended family has issues with Tom~ It is not as if I am going to choose them over my husband the father of my children...my best friend through good times and bad. I am praying for wisdom...I am praying for guidance and a sense of peace that I do not have by simply picking up and exposing myself to more rejection. Each time it takes a very bad toll on my health and I have a family to raise and guide and love and I can't do that if I am sick~ I am hoping that I can sleep tonight but right now things are not looking good....It is not that I don't believe the Lord is there for our family..because I see His glorious provision almost on a daily basis....It is just that I am feeling weary and worn out....

Easter~

HE IS RISEN~ Praise God....We had a wonderful time with Great Grandma and our children and Chris and the munchkins last night~ Little Eddie responded to the alter call...What an answer to prayer! Pastor prayed with him and than laid hands on Chris and the children to pray a blessing on their home...which is so needed during this difficult time in their lives. God is good providing all along the way~ Been away for a while due to lack on internet but I am back...don't know how much you miss writing until you can't~ Amanda sang all weekend with the choir and they did a beautiful job~ She is really coming into her own and growing in the Lord. Gabby and Austin too are coming along in their walk of faith~ That is the one result of hard times that has been a blessing...God is growing and stretching us and although it is difficult at times we are surviving and will make it through...it's like I tell the kids and I must remind myself of too...
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH~!