Melt Down~

Well....what a complete and utter meltdown I had today~ It was not pretty, pleasant and really not like me....But nevertheless~ It happened. I have been in the throws of the worst flare that I have had in over a year...and I am scheduled to give a deposition in my brother's divorce case~ He knows I am very sick but that means nothing to anyone in my family....They are just determined to be vindictive towards my sister-in-law. It is so very disheartening that "professing Christians" should behave this way. But less I digress~ I ended up telling his attorneys office off...yep, I did ~ They could not understand that I have a doctor's note....that I am willing to comply ...once well~ Because I have nothing to hide....No they kept pushing my buttons until I blew up and told them in no uncertain terms that their client my brother was well aware that I was sick and that if they persisted I would get my own attorney~ And then I got off the phone and cried...You see family is everything too me and for them to continue to behave in this manner when Tom and I have always been there for all of them is heartbreaking~ Why? All because we stood up for what is right and would not condone my brother's affair! So .....I am calmer now having taken this before the Lord...Because He knows where I am at ....God knows my heart and I know that Tom and I made the right decision to stand with Chris and help her with the children. As for my family I must continue to release them to the Lord~

ROMANS 12:2
DON'T COPY THE BEHAVIOR AND CUSTOMS OF THIS WORLD, BUT LET GOD TRANSFORM YOU INTO A NEW PERSON BY CHANGING THE WAY YOU THINK. THEN YOU WILL LEARN TO KNOW GOD'S WILL FOR YOU, WHICH IS GOOD AND PLEASING AND PERFECT.